i'm on the computer

end of semester time is evil... theres (at least) one class that i'm gonna have below an 80 in once final grades come out, almost for sure. and it's sad because i love that class, and i'm excited about our final research project, it's just all the other assignments have been reaaaally boring for me. it's a required course so its kind of foundational media analysis stuff, which i'm well equipped for already i feel, but even so i enjoy our in-class discussions a lot. if this class had a participation grade i would probably get like a 90. i just hate to structure my thoughts in essay format, ESPECIALLY when we already went over all the interesting textual analysis in class!! and maybe i'm just being stubborn. i'm sure my prof has reasons for making us do outlines before our essays, but that's not how i work best. i rarely know where i'm going with my writing until it reveals itself in the midst of me writing it, and then i go back and change stuff to align with that. it's just very tedious and annoying to HAVE to outline. in a college course as well....

i have other classes i'm not so worried about, it's just always a lot of stress when every course concludes at the same time and thus all the weightiest projects of the year also come at the same time.... someone should do something about that

also, unrelated, was talking with some classmates earlier about general politics stuff and got into a minor argument over the assertion that human harm on the earth would be best solved by a lack of humans. the people i was talking with seemed mostly unserious about their proposals but that idea always irks me. like sure maybe it might be true who's to say, but like. how are you gonna put that into action. by focusing on some hypothetical where all the humans are taken off earth or the ai overlords solve all our problems, we lose sight of the actual real stuff we can do to help each other in real life right now. frustrating

i've been feeling apprehensive about posting more here but i really shouldn't. i wish dreamwidth was more active, i think thats the primary drawback to a lot of these niche social media sites. as ethical and wonderful as they may be, the people are the primary subject of a social place.... maybe i can convince more people to join, and i'm sure that if (when) tumblr went down we'd get a bunch of new users. i don't want that to happen, but it would be good for dreamwidth probably!

i've had a very busy week... maybe i'll talk about more stuff later but for now i'm just gonna be futzing around on the computer while blazed

i'm an '06 baby who's been on the internet for like literally my whole life (kids games when i was little, watching youtube videos with my dad) and i've been posting social media pretty much since i was in 4th grade. this has not been good for me overall and some of my worst experiences have been entirely online. however for someone as socially anxious as myself, the internet and text-based communication mediums have also done me a lot of extreme good.

i was on instagram pretty much as soon as i entered 7th grade and made my first twitter account when i was 13. being on twitter lead me into long-lasting media interests and i've met my closest friends through that... but of course it's always been a bit hellish and certainly increasingly evil since the advent of generative ai and musk taking over. for many many months now i have used only my private account to blog about my thoughts and life occurrences as well as keep up with my beautiful friends. ! but i'm really trying to cut back on my social media usage (specifically usage of predatory social media like twitter and instagram) and as much as it's difficult to abandon that platform with all of the social connections i have there, i think dreamwidth is a great replacement for the lifeblogging aspect

so what's going on with me? i registered for my classes next fall this morning, and me and all of my classmates collectively realized that we were having a lot of issues...... two of the classes i was most excited for had no seats left so hopefully someone drops and i can get in..!!!! i think one of them im at the top of the waitlist for, but either way its a bit frustrating. also a lot of the class times overlapped with each other (much more than last time we registered) so people ended up having to be really selective about what theyre taking & leaving out some requirements :[ which is obviously not ideal. hopefully administration gets this shit worked out

i kinda have more to talk about but i'm in class now so.... another time!